Weak in GR

If you know me you know I waiting on my third kidney transplant. The first two times it wasn't as apparent as it is this time that I am weak, skinny and altogether unable to work. I think that very soon I will be on disability. This is not the best thing for my ego. My whole life I have prided myself on being a hard worker. In fact that is kind of what my life was about from about age 18 to 26. I thought the harder I work the more money I will make and save, and I would receive more respect from my peers. After all everyone loves a hard worker. After about 26 I realized that that is not what God has planned for me. I know now that God needs to use me in a different way than I thought.

First I know that I am not supposed to work construction. This is very weird because, to be frank I am very good at it. Well I used to be when I could actually lift more than one 2x4 at a time. What I have learned is God gave me a gift with all these trials. You probably think how is doing dialysis and having to have a third kidney transplanting a gift. Well I believe God is using me to accept other people’s gifts. This was very hard at first. It took a lot of sermons and people telling me its ok for me to accept any monetary or personal help. My strength was really my weakness. God took all of these people in my family, church, and group of friends and gave them gifts, but they needed someone to use them on. That someone was Julie, Ellie and I. I will give you a couple examples not that that would even touch the about of love, support and prayer we received. You can't imagine! Two weeks ago the cadets from our church came over and spread woodchips around our house. Something that would have taken me weeks, they finished in 2 hours. They are in 7th grade and they didn't complain once and actually thanked me for a measly donut. Like that made up for what they did. I just want to thank anyone who has helped us over the years. Hopefully you have been as blessed as we have from your help.

When you are in a bad spot and ask yourself "Why do bad things happen to good people?" Just remember that we don't deserve anything not even health, (a good example of this is Job) but by grace God gives it to us. Julie and I are so blessed. Thank you